The Hardest Goodbye...

   Now here I am..after a full year...a year with that one person I loved and always will more than anything...I looked at him and whispered "do u love me?" when I heard him say yes in my head a million times his true reply was "I don't know" that very moment I felt my whole world come to an ending...its over I tell myself...my true love..isn't...a cold rush runs through my spine as a flash comes in front of me and displays our shadowy past..from sitting under the tree with his arms around me till his very last words....Good Bye....it was the end..I held him in my arms for the last time...it didn't feel the same,but when he let go...it was over...I didn't bother to fight...I know I can't give him all he wants..and what is love? Nicholas Sparks has told me...its when  you put your partners happiness before your owns no matter how much pain it will cause you,so I'm letting him go for his happiness...and today...as I stand beside my window and search for the full moon in the night sky...for that's how it was the first time he told me he loves me...a full moon... I think of our every word,every second,ever memory,every love...no matter how many years pass by...he will always be the 13 year old Majd that i met on October 10 with hair spiked up and circled glasses....he will always love me like that year we spent together...in my head he will always hold me in his arms...but today as he stands in front of me...he is 14 with hair down and a gentleman's looking glasses with a job and more responsibilities ...to me he will always remain that 13 years old...
and i will always...
 always love him...
 Farewell my lover....